If you don’t have your health, college quickly becomes a nightmare. That is the experience I’ve had this semester. Although I did not realize it at first, I have been dealing with depression this semester. One of the symptoms of depression is abnormalities with sleeping. This is different for every person. Some people sleep excessively while others barely sleep at all. I am in the latter category. By the time Easter came around, I had gone nearly two months without any restful sleep. College students notoriously do not sleep as long as they need, but this was extreme. I could be taught something on Monday and Wednesday and sincerely believe I had never seen it before when it showed up on Friday’s quiz. At my worst moment, I struggled to even remember how to sign my name. Because the insomnia became so extreme, I had to take the rest of the semester off.
Leaving college while all of my friends are still there was incredibly difficult. I was constantly left out of the loop as my texts and emails often remained unanswered. This has given me a lot of alone time. It is incredibly lonely sitting at home all day with my dog. Sure, dogs are great company, but they don’t talk back. After a few weeks, I’m starting to learn that this is a time of growth that everyone goes through during college. As I go through my journey to recover my health, I have the opportunity to explore more of my interests.
One of the problems college students run into is that health is often ignored. My friends had no idea that I was dealing with anxiety and depression because no one knew the signs. Over the next few posts I will be sharing some common problems students deal with in college in an effort to help students be more aware of what others go through and maybe even what they are going through. It wasn’t until someone described depression to me that I realized that I was dealing with it. I hope that my sharing this information it will encourage those who need it to seek help and will help everyone to be more better prepared to support friends who may be in need of a little extra help themselves.